[22 Sep 2004|05:16pm] [ mood | touched ] [ music | std-threemilesdown ] Yup. So I have pneumonia. Pneumonia? Is that how it's spelled? Eh. Good enough. I went to the doctors, got some pills that make me sick, and an inhaler that tastes like trash. :) But yeah, I fainted into the hunky doctors arms. Jokes, aww man, he wasn't even hunky really. He used to be when I was like five, but no dice now. Anyway, I got up and couldn't see - it was kinda funny I just saw big colored dots and I knew what was coming, apparently so did he because he stood behind me and then I was gone. Felt like I was dreaming, kind of was actually - saw me &Katie skateboarding and Curtis talking about some light. Weird. Very weird. With everything I'm taking I'm going to overdose! I know it's coming. I'm currently on four different types of pills all for different things. I think my doctors a big pill pusher. BLARGKEHW! As long as I get over the prolonged sickness. So, does anyone have homework or news from school for me? Anyone? *crickets chirp* >_> <_< Yeah, considering there's only two people on my livejournal that attend my school and neither is online I'm going to assume that's a big fat NO!@(& Friday can't come fast enough, as long as she doesn't end up catching pneumonia, and dying. :( Sheeeeeeeeeeesh. I have a Bio test tomorrow and I need to study. I suppose I should mosey. *chokes on taste of inhaler* Nice Cat, real nice. :) Eights &nines and a bouquet of roses under your pillow, Catty 7 comments|post comment

[06 Sep 2004|12:26pm] [ mood | nostalgic ] [ music | brand new - soco amaretto lime. ] And finally, here it is: The last day of Summer. In less than twenty-four hours, three of us walk down one path, two of us, another. Going bravely into the unknown? Hardly. A fresh start, maybe. Though, a lonely one nevertheless. After spending almost everyday together for more or less a year, change is in the forcast for all of us. Though we're all happy for one another, It's been a touchy subject for the last couple of months, and now finally the night before it all begins - It's very difficult to put it off anymore. Jhon - From the first day we met almost ten years ago we've pretty much been inseperable since. Something always came and pushed us together and we've made memories from the start. From blocks and crayons, to crushes and arguements, moving to fights and singalongs we've always made it through and always came out on top. I hope it continues to play out that way. I know if I ever need you I just need to ask for the kid with the giant poodle that looks like it was thrown in the dryer on his head. ;) You'll make a million friends at Memorial this year, your personality (and hair) will make sure of that. Just don't forget your best friend right here. I know I couldn't ever replace you. If you ever feel lonely, just straighten your hair, steal one of Rebecca's old dresses, and hop on the first bus to Sydney. I promise you'll fit right in. Going to violin without you is going to kill, we'll have to meet with them once a week to..uh..practice o_0. I love you so much, Jhono. Stay you, I couldn't imagine you any other way ;). Mitch - My guitar god, my confidant, my best friend. Stay safe, love. I know you'll do great things this year, impressing everyone be it with your amazing personality, your intelligence or your mad guitar skills. I'll walk up to get you everynight you want me to. We'll walk around talking about nothing and everything. Regardless of whether it makes sence, it'll matter. That's all that counts. Don't forget to play 'Hot for Teacher' this year, there's gotta be one who'll be worth it. Think of me in French class, as well. You're a big Whale, Mitch - you really are! Thanks for always giving me another chance when I screw up, and always counting on me as much as I count on you. Equality is nice. :) Never ever change, if I don't attack you for it - the Carebears will. Meow mutherfucker. =(^-.-^)= I love you, babe. We both know nothing is ever going to change what's between us, that's why yours was so easy to write. I've got a million and one things up here *points to head* that I have to say to you. But, a whole lifetime to put them out there. That's guarunteed to me. I know it is. I love you. Phil - OK, first of all - don't let anyone cut your hair. If you see scissors, run bitch, run! Now that we have that out of the way, boy I'm going to miss all of your peverse sexual comments, (ok so I lied, I'm actually thrilled to be away from them - ok I lied again - I actually enjoy them.) and your SAUCY ZINGGERS! Ok, enough funnies. I'm going to really miss your shoulder to cry on when things go wrong, or your hand to hold when I'm scared. I know you have a lot of other friends now and we're not really as close as we were before, but man you're still on top with me. You always will be, we fight a lot - sure. But I love you just the same. We wouldn't be 'us' if little things didn't effect everything we do or how we see eachother. I know you'll never change, you've been peverse and sexual since you were wearing diapers. But, that's you. I love you tons, cutiepie. If you ever need anyone for a Subway mission, a study partener or anorexic food missions - you know my number. ;) Katie - YOU'RE NOT GOING ANYWHERE. I have you strapped to me on a leash and you're staying. So, there's no reason to write anything except I love you and I'll be seeing you soon. YOU GOT IT BIATCH!@!P@&!@& Goodnight, Bitch. :) kissy kissy kissy I love you, Missy. Walking in opposite directions is going to be extremely hard, but in the end, you know, we do have to walk those seperate paths back home. Eventually after streatching out in opposite directions, when you return to the start our roads meet and combine as one. Each day, we will too. Eights and nines and a boquet of roses under your pillow, Catrina Maybe someday I'll feel well enough to take the scratches out, until then.. post comment

[03 Aug 2004|10:31am] [ mood | okay ] Wow. There's not much left to say is there? That's alright. I'll try. I finally understand what Joseph Arthur was talking about in 'Honey &the Moon', I mean - I always loved the song, but right now I know how he felt. Last night, on the ride home I let my eyes fall outside the window to the sky. It was almost breathtaking. I don't think my eyes left it over the landscape of water and trees for more than a minute, watching the light stream down across the water, watching it rise a little more every few minutes. I just wanted to sit there and stare into space all night, but it became even more special because I knew I'd have to leave in a short half-hour. I watched the moon follow the car &immediately I was reminded of how I used to think it chased our car when I was younger, I'd jump around in my seat wondering who was pushing it, and why it chose us out of everyone else to follow. I thought of Mitch when we passed the bridge, I waited for that split second everything was perfectly inline, and I felt the love I have for him just wash over me. Even the moon was parallell to that bridge last night, Mitch. I wish you could've seen it. It was beautiful. You guys, Katie, Mitch, Phil, Jhon, You're the honey &the moon that lights up my life. Everyday, I just love to sit with you guys when we're doing absoloutely nothing, that's never going to change. I just love the feelings I have when I'm with you - whether it's getting eaten alive by mosquitos because we're too impotent to get a fire started - but still want to have a sing along, whether it's laying on pavement freezing because we just got out of the pool but never wanting to leave because the stars are like the ceiling we could only wish for, whether it's just laying in your basement watching a movie and eating pastries, dividing them so we each get what we want. Those feelings are real. I want to feel these ones forever. And though, sometimes I wonder why you guys chose me, I know you love me for who I am. Even if I'm nothing without you guys. I just want to know what any of you saw in me, because if you left me I'd just be empty. I'd have no inspiration, no heart, and no drive to do anything. I'm not special, you guys have made me everything I am. We have the most amazing times together, don't we? Sometimes I find myself hoping and praying for another night like the first singalong, not knowing we're making one right then, and though they might have taken that away from us - they can't take away these feelings. No one ever will. I know that in my heart now. Even as the summer draws closer to the end, I'll still have each of you in my heart &by my side. That's all I need, that's all I'll ever need. The good times, and the bad. I'll take them all - as long as it means we're still talking - we're still side by side - we're still together - we're still us. Thank you, all of you. I'll even thank Savannah - even if she is going to see Usher without me. =P These are more for Katie right now than anyone, I know she'll understand so I'll stop ruining everything with what I think are words best suited for these guys, truth is - you could never put them into words. They're far too much, they're just too good. ( Song #1 ) ( Song #2 ) I love you guys, all of you. Thank you, for giving me so much to live for. 3 comments|post comment

[13 Jun 2004|08:59am] [ mood | calm ] [ music | brand new - socoamarettolime ] Best night ever in the history of nights. Wanna know when that was? Last night. Man. We went up in the back field and had a fire, and we walked to Mitch's house because his parents are wicked and bought us marshmallows and hot dogs. Yeah, that's right. Then we got Mitch's guitar out and started our own sing-a-long with lots of songs only Katie, Jhon &I know. Jhon screamed them at the top of his lungs because he's no where near shy. Charlie has nothing on us, last night we were infinite. Ah man, I can't even describe it in words. Being with everyone just made me feel good, like nothing is going to change. Like nothing could ever change. I'm not sure if I ever want to go another weekend without doing that again. It felt like we were some place better, &for a few short hours - We were. I love you guys so much. For the first time in my life I know how it's supposed to feel to have real best friends You're supposed to feel good. You're supposed to know that no matter what you say, it's always going to work out. Laying under the stars with Katie last night, nothing will ever top that. Everyone else singing, or goofing off around us, but we didn't even know. Last night was unity I'll never forget that feeling. ( Soco Amaretto Lime ) Things change. People change. I'm going to put this behind me. 1 comment|post comment

[03 Dec 2003|10:25pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | bright eyes - haligh, haligh, a lie, haligh ] FRiENDS ONLY :) Please comment before adding me, I'm always in the market for a new friend. You can read more about me here. xo Catrina 36 comments|post comment

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